I realized i let that part of my resolution down. Me and school dont go well with each other.

So i just realized that its 21 days before the new year and i have soooo much to be thankful for this whole year. I kno this is loves journey me and my bf is still goin strong. I wish more for us. I wish better for him. I want 2011 to be his year to do whateva he needs to get shit done cuz i kno 2011 ima stop fckn around in school (i purposely missed my math exam. I made a fckn 30 on my exam. Wtf.)

i love him so much i want the best for him. Honestly.

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well i thought he was cheating on me. so his friend comes and asks if he is going to Naomi house. i guess they was trying to hook him up with Naomi sister and Charles had told him that he was dumb as hell becuz "u kno i have my gf here with me and i told u that i dont even like mandy like that. like, wtf is goin on through ur head" and i guess Mandy got mad and put on his facebook that he is a liar and that all the girls that are sexually involved with him needs to get checked out and that he says he goin to break up wit his GF but wont do it and called him a bitch and i guess that was why he was so mad that morning that he went outside wit my phone and called up there mom and told them that they was doing crack/powder.




so Stokes and his girlfriend Paige came to the yard i went to the bathroom all of a sudden, all hell breaks loose and Paige i guess attempted to hit Charles and then they callin him fake becuz he snitched on them and Mandy was broken hearted so she was trying to make it seem like he was cheating on me. im like wow when he was telling me this. so then he came to my house and blahblahblah.



(SN: I got fckd up.i was high as shit and drunk as hell on Saturday night. Continuing...)



so today. omg.



he was tellin me that he loved me and didnt want to lose me to nothing stupid and doesnt want anybody coming between us. im like, i dont have anyone trying to ruin my relationship. thats ur friends. and then .... the sex... was great. smh. like... im shaking my head. becuz it makes me not want to leave more and more and more and i feel like i am getting clingy so like... idk. like... i got a test at 12:30 but i already kno i have an F in that class so aint no point in me taking that test i shud take it but i dont want to be stuck at the school so i'd rather take my last 3 tests. Friday Monday and Tuesday and then go home. i miiss him sooo much.



and then he gon try to tell me that we aint ready for kids (which i kno that) lol. and then asked me how i felt about it i said idk. he said "see we both iffy and yet we still do dumb shit like attempt to have a kid" lol. and then tells me that my stomach is tightenin up and i might be pregnant but i dont think so. so... ima need to take another pregnancy test.



and im soooo scared becuz if i am. idk what ima do. .... idk what ima do. at all. like.. i was drinking and smoking. im starting off bad!