So, my last post tlkd bout how i had changed my mind bout this pregnancy ordeal but uhhhh..... He ended up doin it again. It felt so right and wrong at the same time. Like, i already had a dream i was tellin everyone i was pregnant but dmn. Idk what ima do now. Like my period comes on this weekend and this happened this morning (monday) so...... Idk.
I wish i had a pregnant persons help. I love him sooo much, i truly do. But i dont want to have a baby and not be able to take care of it. Ya kno, i already have my doubts.
And he can be sooo sweet i remember waking up sweating (nasties) cuz the heat was on and i cudnt breathe. Then he told me to move to the other side and then... (ok ok we had sex but after that he told his mom to turn it down).
I just wish i knew what he was thinkin. He be tellin me he miss me and be thinkin bout me a lot more than he used to and his mom always ask about me.
Then he says she never do that for any of his gfs and im the only one that she likes.
I think i told yall this before. main point.
I feel like im in love. I love him so much but i be feeling like he be doin other things. U kno, lack of communication makes me crazy but usually wen we see each other, its all gud.
And i notice i take my anger out on everybody i dnt be meanin to.
And then, also.... I might also switch to tumbler and get off blogger. Idk, i gtta decide on it.
Court tomorrow, home wednesday. Period this week :( but food and pie and more food :)
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