At S-U

im at Winston Salem State University and I sooooo miss my boyfriend and my mom and can u believe it, Joy. lol. Mann i been here for 4 days and no friends and dude, my new years resolution is not going so well in the Shy department and im tired of being asked to speak up when this is the way i talk. what u want me to do scream. here are some pics.

So that is the dorm room and stuff (most of that is my roommates. im a broke college student and she not). and ME! and i really miss my boyfriend. I feel like the guys here are wayyyy cuter than they were at Fay State and im like so dead serious because just, wow. They are cute. I guess its true, further north u go , cuter they get. I know New York got some fine men.

Well....

Lets just hope by the end of this year everything goes right and i get engaged to the love of my life. ........ I doubt thats going to happen. Thats months from now and i cant wait till Refund and i get the license plate on my car, im going to see my boyfriend for that weekend and chill out. then go home and just visit. lol.

I got plans to do with that car once its registered but that wont be till like, 2 months from now. If you on my dads schedule cuz he always wanna do shit last minute. i might not be home labor day weekend. *sighs* i wish Charles would have called today. he knows i miss him. Ill wait tho. ill tlk to him on the computer till my phone gets turned back on so its whateva.

Nite Blogg. I got an 8 o'clock class in the morning.

(SN: My classes. I hate them. [Mondays&WEDNESDAYS&Fridays] except my Psychology class. that lady is funny and im sooo ready for it. I have no idea where my Rehab class is at though. Oh well. i guess. ill figure it out later. i need to go to sleep im dead tired.)

What does it mean to have a pic of ya ex gf on ya page and then say bestie and then take her off.

Idk if I made the right decision with getting back with him.

I still have doubts in my head about him and his securities (as he says he is but I dnt think he still wants to be tied down with one girl).

I really dnt kno, I wish I did kno. Ughh. Complicated. School next thursday. I wanna chill wit him before I leave and my financial aid still hasn't went thru. Life is hard.

--PointBlankk

Booty!

The episode of boondocks wen the guy says suttin bout Booty. They got it from a Lock up episode. I jux realized that omg.

Omg. He jux said. "I like u. I want u. Either we can do this the easy way or the hard way". Ohmygoshhh.

Like, they got it from that and the dude look just like him like woooow. Crack lips and everything. Lol.
--PointBlankk

Fckd up.

U kno they left me and Joy here to starve while they go get sumthin to eat. My sister wanted to go to Olive Garden and she only had enuff to pay for us 3 and I wasn't gnna buy Joy food so I said that I wud pay for myself and u get Joy food as long as I get to use the car and my mom looked at me wit a "no" face and my sister said no. How bout they both go and me and Joy stay here. So they left to go to olive garden and aint shit to eat in the house and I haven't ate or had anything to drink all day so all I said was wateva and ima go to sleep but idk wen.
--PointBlankk

Laugh for the day

Lmfao. "I don't want to be like
fuck you bitch I don't want to be with you anymore, you'll never find
someone as good as me.". Lmmfao. Tooooo funny.
--PointBlankk

I don't know what to do no more. He wants me back and I cnt take him back. My head says no and my heart says yes. I dnt know if I shud follow my heart or not.
--PointBlankk

Worst fckn day ever

So we get to 6 flags around 12. Mann, we are at the gate tickets in hand, and we aint have our IDs so we had to turn around (me and poohla "whose pregnant") so we walk come to find out wen we get to the car we don't need our IDs so we took the tram back.

Ok. Then its the bathroom issue. Poohla daughter has to go the line was like, 30 girls in front of us and everyone skippin her. I'm gettin irritated so I tell her to fight her way to a stall so this one girl opened it and I pushed her in that direction and its like 90 degrees outside. So we get out the bathroom.
Meet back up and get on this log ride. Its alright so we get on this other ride. We stand in line for 2 fckn hours. We finally get on, these crackerbarrels steals our seats and they did not have a flashpass. So they went ahead and got on the ride and I was soooooo madd. Me and tonya had to wait for the next one. So we get on, the shit was 30 seconds long.

Then, coming out my sister was dying of thirst so we waited for her to get something to drink, they ran out of ice so the drinks were hot mann.

So then, I'mthe only one wit a phone they blowin me up askin where we at. So they tell us to wait, and we did then we goot tired of waiting, then they tell us to go there. Mannnnn! We did and they was givin us the run around so I said fck it. Then it started lightening. Everyone taking there time to leave.

Then when it poured down raining, everyone hurrying out. Trust me, this is the almost worst part of the day. So then it pours down raining, my cousin, he jux walks off leaving me my sister and his pregnant gf behind and his yungest child behind.

These 3 boys mann, they were sliding on the pavement and hit me at least 3 times and I was like, one more time I'm finna punch a child in the face and I wish someone would say something cuz they cnt control their kids. I had a fresh (3 day) perm. Like, rain fckd my head up and I was ready to hit somebody. Lol and as soon as I said that this guy looked at me and walked to his lil boy. They same motherfckr that cut us in line.

So.... We out in the rain for 20 mins (walking, waiting, and looking) looking for the car and he don't even honk at us and let us kno he right in our face. He to busy on his phone and mannnnnnn. We was soaked like beyond soaked and we sat in the car, for no apparent reason. He being pissed off at the world and we sittin there looking dumb. Wen we leave and I get out, I got brown shit on my shorts. I'm wearing white fckn shorts. So I had to ride the whole way, holding it in I had to use the bathroom. I cudnt do it no more so I went to the bathroom at this one gas station. And it was worse. Like, worse! That's the worst part of my day.

Mannn. Now I'm at my cousin house and they dnt wanna take me home. I'm ready to walk home and say fck it. Honestly, I cnt be here right now. I want my bed.

Oh yea, the pics are of me and my wet shorts, shirt, and hair. Evn tho it looked cute then but see it now its a hot ass mess. (My cousin told me that my indian side will come out and it wud be easily fixable, BULLSHIT!) And my sister.

--PointBlankk