I love him soooo much. I honestly do. Its like wen i think hes gone and not thinkin bout me. He pops up and lets me kno he still thinkin bout me misses me and loves me but i knoooo he doesnt as much as i love him. I feel like we are meant to be together and i can truly say that u always go thru hard times before u get to the good times.

<3 Charles N Shanae <3

but sumtimes.... It gets overwhelming

Im in love;; all his <3

"I wish i had time to get to kno u but i dont. I wish i cud be here in the morning but i wont. So lets get it in boy." - Lloyd feat 50 cent.

So, my last post tlkd bout how i had changed my mind bout this pregnancy ordeal but uhhhh..... He ended up doin it again. It felt so right and wrong at the same time. Like, i already had a dream i was tellin everyone i was pregnant but dmn. Idk what ima do now. Like my period comes on this weekend and this happened this morning (monday) so...... Idk.

I wish i had a pregnant persons help. I love him sooo much, i truly do. But i dont want to have a baby and not be able to take care of it. Ya kno, i already have my doubts.

And he can be sooo sweet i remember waking up sweating (nasties) cuz the heat was on and i cudnt breathe. Then he told me to move to the other side and then... (ok ok we had sex but after that he told his mom to turn it down).

I just wish i knew what he was thinkin. He be tellin me he miss me and be thinkin bout me a lot more than he used to and his mom always ask about me.
Then he says she never do that for any of his gfs and im the only one that she likes.

I think i told yall this before. main point.

I feel like im in love. I love him so much but i be feeling like he be doin other things. U kno, lack of communication makes me crazy but usually wen we see each other, its all gud.

And i notice i take my anger out on everybody i dnt be meanin to.

And then, also.... I might also switch to tumbler and get off blogger. Idk, i gtta decide on it.

Court tomorrow, home wednesday. Period this week :( but food and pie and more food :)

He sent me a txt saying that he hopes that no matter how hard life gets, he jux wants us to be happy. Idk what made him say that but its nice for him to think about. Since he is so worried about our future. I love this man, no doubt.

Unpredictable sometimes. :)
--PointBlankk

Its been a couple months and u have missed a lot. Well, not a lot. Uhmm.... First off. We attempted to have a kid then me and him (after doing it) had 2nd thoughts about it, and I'm not pregnant but I don't plan on becoming pregnant anytime soon. its almost the end of the year and I feel like I changed, truly changed, since the beginning of the year.

I feel loved, to an extent. I can't truly trust my bf. I want to but I feel like, if I can't talk to him on a regular basis then he doing something else and not thinking about me. Its so upsetting, I think about him all the time but most of the time, I don't think he thinks about me.

This past weekend was a pain, I have a shoulder strain so I have to take Naproxyn to soothe my pain. It works I'm jux really sleepy. Reallllly sleepy.

ER for 7 hours to get injected and my blood taken from me twice lol.

I almost got into a couple accidents with my mom. It wud be there fault becuz we had the right of way, EACH time. Tooo much for me. Can't do it.

I love him soooo much, idk if I'm ready to get married, but if he asks me I'm ready. :D
--PointBlankk