About Me

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Fayetteville, North Carolina, United States
Im just an 19 year old girl that loves to have fun and do weird things with my crazy ass friends. I experiment a lot and I wish I had certain things. Not all fashionable, my wish list is bigger than what I have. I'm just an average girl that unfortunately, cant get a job AT ALL in my life. fckn fayetteville. Smh. I love my life right now no matter how many times i say I hate it.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

If u really knew me

Is a touching show and MTV has never failed me once with its reality shows about teens. BET needs to take notes. (Bgc comes on next tuesday)

This was my very first episode watching if u really knew me. Let me share a lil of mine.

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U wud kno that I cry myself to sleep almost every night because of things I hear ppl say about me.

Crying makes me feel even more pathetic than I already feel about myself.

My true friends are the ones I have known since high school, PointBlank.

I'm very easy to get along with and a major bitch if we end up beefing over something.

I regret A LOT of things in my past, so I cannot say I don't regret them because I do regret them and I wish I can turn back the hands of time.

I honestly honestly (seriously) thought about going lesbo but I can't fathom the idea of me, lickin some girls cooter.

u'd kno it breaks my heart eveytime I see him with another but I care too much to wanna hurt him by saying something.

I have the tendency to look and check up on people making sure that they are ohkayy and just hoping, for the hopeless.

I have an attitude towards everybody at first because I don't know if I can handle another major heartbreak of any reason right now.

Yes, I have considered suicide a lot in my life, and I attempted once but couldn't go through with it.

I always have these dreams that I died young, but idk when that is, and I start to realize that's why I rush everything. (I always known I won't make it pass the age 25)

I'm HIGHLY insecure and I feel like if someone gives me a compliment, they are lying to me and only do it to make themself feel better.

I wish I had a guy I can hang out with everyday instead of sticking to my phone like glue.

U wud kno how I bottle everything up inside and that any minute now I can just snap, and commit murder. (TrueStory)

Family really isn't all that important to me.

I strive for my relationships to work, but I wish I had someone do the same for me.

I would rather be the one to get approached instead of doing the approaching.

Many more... To tireddd to write them.
--PointBlankk

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