A new beginning

If you are familiar with my first blog, you would definately remember my self realization post. I keep that in my phone so I can read it and It reminds me of kayla everyday. That's my best friend and she helps me realize a lot about myself.

Yall shud also remember my new years resolutions and I am PROUD to say that I accomplished them. I broke my emotional wall, and trust me I hate it. I learned to trust, even wen I don't want to I still trust him. Lol hehe and I have no more rookie ways. Jux sayin.

Just, I can't get over the shy part.

2010, I grown a lot. Ask my friends, hell I re-read my postings and I really have changed in lots of ways.

Even tho this whole break up issue with my boyfriend got to me, (which is where I left off my last post) I'm happy that she not pregnant with his child. I'm happy that we are back together and I'm jux really happy that it feels like its a clean slate between us 2.

His bday is wednesday and idk what ima do for him. I gotta see if I can get the car, I truly love him. U know, the first love is the most memorable. Well, I realllly feel like I know what love is and the past 2 days of being broken up I been depressed cryin on and off like, idk what happened till he told me.

But I'm happy I got him back.

I'm all off subject tho.

The past 6 months me and charles has been together was rocky. Seriously! What relationship isn't tho. From now till when I leave for winston salem is going to be a real challenge. Even when I'm at winston salem its going to be a challenge. Which is why this blog is called Loves Journey. I want us to go far and if we can last a relationship 3 hrs away then we can do anything. We only 45 minutes away now and we doing fine. Just as long as no more unexpected shit comes, I'm great.

You kno what's even better.

No child being born in August the week after I leave. Its all me and him and the other minor issues and we r good to go.

I love Charles Andrea' Thomas with my heart and everybody can disprove but they dnt know how I feel for him and I feel like he is the best thing that happened in my life, and I am not going nowhere, right now. (I'm only saying this becuz the saying fool me once shame on u fool me twice shame on me will never leave my thoughts. That and the 3 strinkes your out. I can't deal too much with heartbreak. Im not gnna hang on to someone that doesn't want me.)

Goodnight. Time for me to go to sleep as a taken lady for the first time in 2 days.
--PointBlankk